Kind of Mom I Wanna Be...

When I first found out I was pregnant I immeditely thought about everything I wanted to do with my child and what I also wanted to teach him or her. Then I found out I was a having girl and the whole plan changed. It became about how cute she would look, how sassy she would be and the list goes on. 

But being a mom isn't about all of that. Yes, it is about teaching them but it's also about those little moments you get to spend with them. Today, Adylee was laying down to go to sleep and she reached her arms out for me. I scooped her up and started rocking her, which I don't get to do very often. I told her that mommy was right here and I wouldn't ever go anywhere. As soon as I said that, I looked down and she closed her eyes, smiled, and drifted off to sleep. I instantly started crying. Those are the little moments that I live for. The moments where I just know that she needed me. At that time, that's what she needed to hear to know that it was okay to go to sleep. 

To me, being a mom is those moments. It's also about teaching her to walk down the correct path and be the best she can be. Of course, I will introduce her to God and let her make her own decision. I want her to know that she has the freedom to do what she wants but to also know that there are rules and boundaries. I will be her best friend BUT I will also be her mom. 

I love my baby girl and wouldn't trade being her mommy for the world. She drives me nuts at times but I know that it's just her learning and growing. I know that I will eventually miss those times. 

Happy Mother's Day to every single mom I know and every single mom that will read this post! You are shaping the future :) 

Easter 2014!

This year is Adylee's second Easter and I am so excited! She finally is able to do egg hunts and really appreciate the presents she gets from the Easter bunny! 

It all started with a small Easter egg hunt at her daycare on the Thursday before Easter. She didn't quite understand the concept of picking up the eggs and handing them to me but she still enjoyed herself. 

We then dyed some Easter eggs on Friday and decorated cookies for Easter! She had so much fun dying the eggs. Her facial expressions speak for the self. 

On Sunday the real fun began! The Easter bunny was very generous to miss Adylee! One basket was from me and the other was from my parents. I know that I probably went a little overboard but I just couldn't help myself. 

When she woke up she was so excited to see all the gifts and kept pointing to it! She couldn't wait to rip into all of it. 

She then ran around and found some eggs that the Easter bunny dropped at our house. 

Afterwards we got dressed and went to church because the true meaning of Easter is for Christ and we are Christians. We originally were supposed to wear semi matching dresses but I just couldn't get comfortable in my dress so I took it off. But Adylee still looked adorable!! 

After church we went to her other grandparents house where she had another egg hunt. She got over 50 eggs and loved every single minute of it. She finally got the idea of how to pick up the egg and put it in a bag and keep moving. Afterwards, we came back home and enjoyed ANOTHER egg hunt with her cousins. She wanted to get all the eggs :) 

We enjoyed some dinner and then headed back to her grandparents house so they could spend some more time with her. All in all, she had a very exciting Easter! She loved every single minute of it!! 

Naked Skin Foundation Review

I have been using the Naked Skin foundation for about a month now and I am pretty pleased with it however, I am ready to try a new one. I've become make up obsessed! Now on to the review...

The Naked Skin foundation is liquid make up but has written on the bottle that it is weightless and ultra definition. It comes in a variety of shades as does most foundations. At the time that I bought mine I was a 4.0 which is a medium color. I probably could've went down a shade or two and still been okay but you learn as you go! It is a buildable coverage foundation and doesn't leave the caked on feeling. 

A little but goes a looooong way with this foundation. I usually only need 1 pump and that will cover my entire face. If you pump out more you're basically going to waste a lot of it or you're putting on way too much. I know it doesn't look like I pumped out a lot from the picture above but trust me, it does go on the whole face. 

Normally when I use this foundation, I use the MAC prolong wear concealer and then just put my foundation on top of it. I have also used it with out concealer and have to say that it does cover the blemishes and such but I mainly use my concealer for those under eye circles because mine are quite dark (perks of being a mom). I have read reviews on this foundation of people just using it with a primer and then going in with a finishing powder. I don't use finishing powder however, I probably should start! 

In my opinion, this is a foundation that I will definitely use more than just once. It covers well and dries like literal skin. You can hardly feel that you have foundation on which I love! I hate liquid foundation for the most part and have only ever used powder but after using this one, I have grown to like liquid. It doesn't feel cakey and most definitely doesn't look it either. I would say it's a good buy and definitely worth the money!! 

Adylee's 18 month update!

I can't believe it's been a year and a half since this little girl came into my life. It's been such an amazing journey learning how to be a mom to this little miracle. The fact that I wake up every morning to hear "hi mommy" just makes me instantly calm and ready for the day. The day she tells me "I love you" is a day I will melt to pieces. Adylee is now 18 months and I feel like this part of her life has flown by again. I can't believe in just 6 short months my little girl will be 2! Yikes!!! 

Adylee has been reaching a ton of new milestones lately! She has started to say more words and is now potty training!! I am so excited to start this new chapter with her. I'll be sad to see our cloth diapers go but I will be saving them for our next baby (whenever that is). She doesn't go consistently but I don't push her majorly on it either. If she goes then awesome if not then that's okay too. She's still young. I am happy that she is showing interest in it though! 

Our next major thing that is going on with Adylee is that, come April 24th she will be going in to surgery to have tubes out in her ears. I know it's a super minor surgery and she'll be in and out but I am still a nervous wreck about the whole thing. My baby will be going in for surgery! AHHHHHH! I have been praying to God like crazy and hoping that prior to surgery and afterwards she will be okay and things will go just as planned. Her and I have been through so much when I was pregnant and now she is going to have her own surgery. 

Aside from all that, we had her 18 month check up this past week! Her doctor was very pleased with everything and said that she won't get another shot until she is 4 so we made it out of there with no tears! He asked me how many words she is saying and I told him about 15ish and we discussed reading to her, flash cards and all that which she does at school and with me anyways. But, he also said that her surgery should help her start talking more so hopefully it does. Then he went into the whole potty training talk and I told him that we have already started and she has gone about 4 or 5 times already and he was very pleased and impressed. Other than that, it was just a routine check up and she passed with flying colors! 

Some stats on miss Adylee: 

-weighs 25 lbs and 13.5 oz

-is 33 inches tall 

-head circumference is 47 cm 

-wearing some 18 month clothing but is mainly in 2T or 24 months 

-size 5 or 6 in shoes depending on the make of shoe 

-loves to be outside 

-calls Minnie Mouse "innie" 

-is still obsessed with Minnie Mouse and Sofia the First 

-has watched Frozen about 12 times but I had her take a break from it so we don't scratch the DVD anymore than it already is 

-still wearing cloth diapers when she is at home but in pull ups at school

-wears the 3T-4T in pull ups! 

-new words are pa, and titi (aunt in Spanish)

I am so proud of the little girl my munchkin is becoming! I can't wait to see what the next 6 months has in store for us and also can't wait to see how fast she picks up on this whole potty training thing. Hopefully she's out of diapers by the time she is 2! I love her so much. She's the absolute light of my life. 

Cleaning Makeup Brushes

I haven't ever cleaned a makeup brush since I started using makeup but with using and buying so much good makeup I decided it was time to clean them. Especially my one lonely MAC brush lol. 

I was so close to buying the MAC cleaner until I did some digging and found out that I could use baby shampoo. Of course I have some of it laying around from when Adylee was little so I decided to go ahead and try it out! IT WORKS! 

Just use the simple baby shampoo and you've got yourself a brand new (cheap) make up brush cleaner. 

The first thing you're gonna do is put a small amount of shampoo in the palm of your hand. You may have to use more spending on how dirty your brush is and what you use it for. The brush I used to do this demonstration was my foundation brush so of course, it was majorly dirty and had a lot of product build up on it and needed more shampoo to properly clean all of it off. 

You're then going to wet the brush and then swirl it into the shampoo. Make sure to get it nice and soapy. You will see it start to work immediately and again, depending how much product is on it the color of the soap will change to whatever color is built up on the brush. 

Run it underneath the water and watch the magic haha. It will start to look clean right away. Once it's all clean, squeeze very lightly the excess water off and lay it down on the towel. Make sure to leave enough room in between brushes to allow the water to dry up. 

As you can see, the edge of my brush is no longer brown but now back to the original color of white. 

And I used it on my MAC brush too and got off all my concealer. 

Naked 2 Palette: real vs fake

I was lucky enough to finally get the real Naked 2 palette and oh my...I am in love. I had gotten the palette first off tmart.com because it was 1. cheap and 2. I thought it was real. Yes I know, I should've known better but I am still new to this whole super good make up thing. Anyways, I thought I would share with you the difference between the real and the fake. Now having the real one, it's literally astounding how different they are. 

First off the packaging is a pretty significant difference. 

Real is on top and the fake is on bottom. The differences are pretty obvious. Color, design, font, even size. Just the over all look. 

Real on top and fake on bottom. Again, the differences are pretty obvious. The don't is even upside down. 

Real on bottom and fake on top. Obvious differences. More writing on the real than on the fake. 

Real on top and fake on bottom. You can tell from the pictures that the colors of the eye shadows are completely different. Plus the over all look is different. The eye shadows are circles on the fake rather than little squares like on the real. 

Real on top and fake on bottom. They look fairly similar if you take a quick glance. But they are very different in size and color. The real is more gold while the fake is brownish.

Fake on top and real on bottom. The most significant difference in the actual palette shell is that the writing is upside down. Now to move on to the swatches....

Real swatch colors are on top and the fake is on bottom. At first glance, many look similar. But if you really look you can tell the major differences. 

Foxy, Half Baked, Bootycall and Chopper. Foxy is very similar but the fake one is kind of chalky looking. The obvious difference is color is Half Baked. The fake is more orange while the real one is gold. You can see a slight difference in Bootycall as well as Chopper. To me, the real Chopper is more bronze while the fake one is a deeper bronze with a hint of orange. 

Chopper again, Tease, Snakebite, Suspect, Pistol. You can clearly see the difference in them. Tease is more brown in the real one where as the fake is like a purple. Snakebite is more brown with hints of hold and the fake is just brown. Suspect is the same with a little less brown and it seems like the fake one is the exact same color as the fake Snakebite. Pistol is more a of dark silver in the real palette and the fake one is again just brown. 

Verve, YDK, Busted and Blackout. Verve is the obvious difference with it being silver in the real palette and more brownish in the fake. Obviously the people who make the fake palette seem to like brown. YDK is another brownish goldish color (yes I realize that I've said that already but I have no idea how to describe it other than that) and the fake is again....brown but this time it has flecks of gold. Busted is similar but when you put it on you can tell the absolute difference in color. Blackout seems to be the same but again is very different when you put it on. 

So there's the swatches. Sorry if they sound the same in some colors but like I said, I have no other way to describe it. I'm not super make up savvy yes lol. 

I decided to include a pic of the inside because I wanted to show you how different they are in color as well as how similar which is why it fools people. The top is the real palette and the bottom is fake. They are very VERY different when you touch the actual color. The fake is more chalky like feeling while the real on is more silky smooth. They go on very differently as well. It's hard to blend the fake super well (at least in my opinion) than the real one. 

Another major different in the brush that they include. The real one is gold while the fake is rose colored. They feel very different also. Not sure how to explain that because again I am not super make up savvy but compared to my MAC brush the fake is just heavy I guess. There are obvious color differences in the brush colors. The real is more caramel color while the fake is straight black and white. Oh and the real brush has a number on the back where the fake one seems to miss that. 

Another thing that didn't come with the fake Naked 2 palette was the sample of the primer potion. I'm not going to include it because it's just a little booklet with a few samples of their primer potion in it. 

As you can see, there are obvious major differences in the fake palette and if you don't own the real one then you probably wouldn't ever know. I suggest that if you want the Naked 2 palette just buy the real one. Now I completely understand that it may not be realistic for you because the price is $52 at Ulta but if you want good quality colors then I would say save your money and buy it or ask for it for a holiday. I was lucky to get it for a late Valentine's Day gift. It's worth the money! 

One Tough Momma.... (Guest post by Stephanie Kyger)

I was 18 years old, barely out of high school, and here I was holding a positive pregnancy test. I was heart broken, scared, anxious, maybe even a little bit happy. My body was now harboring a little human life. I was four weeks pregnant. The thought of it scared the crap out of me. I was hysterically crying and I knew I had to tell my boyfriend, Michael. We had been together for maybe four months and now we were gonna be parents? It was crazy to me.  

My family didn't react great to my pregnant, my mother tried to demand to me get an abortion, adoption or marry Michael. I wasn't going to do either. I knew I wasn't going to spend the right of my life with him. We taught way to much and I suspected he was cheating on me. My mother eventually tried starving me so I would miscarry. A week later my mother moved to Tennessee and I behind.

Michael and I tried to work things out, and eventually I thought we were, but then he broke up with me over the phone on 4/20 when I was 11 weeks pregnant or so. I was deviated. I went into a deep depression because I couldn't handle the thought of being a single mother. A week later Michael always had a new girlfriend. A younger one at that. Which confirmed my suspicions that he was cheating. From that point forward, to this day, all Michael and I did was fight. He started denying our baby, lying even more, lying about his training and deployment dates, lying about me. He had basically become a pathological liar. I hated whom he had become. 

When I was six months pregnant his girlfriend called me and demanded a DNA test, calling me a slut and what not. It devastated me so much that it made me physically ill. My friends mother ended up threatening her if she ever called me again. A week after that it was my gender scan, it was a girl! I was so excited to be having a baby girl. I already had a named picked out for her. her name was Brooklynn Helena (hel-lae-na). After the gender scan was over, we went back into a room to wait for the doctor to look over the ultrasound, to make sure everything was alright. When the doctor came back in, he checked the babies heartbeat and said it was perfect, but he was slightly concerned and wanted me to come back in. My doctor told me the most heartbreaking news I could ever hear. He told me that Brooklynn had a cyst in her brain that was about a millimeter long (I think, I don't completely recall). After that appointment was over, I broke down into tears in the parking lot and just cried. It was all I could do. After that was when I would start having frequent ultrasound scans every 2-3 weeks; just to check the growth of the cyst and to make sure it was benign. But still, the thought of a cyst growing in my daughters brain was the scariest thing that I had ever heard. And the fact that Michael didn't even care... Well I already had a knife in my heart from the cyst news, but Michael not caring was twisting that knife deeper in. I prayed every day for this to go away, I cried all the time. I honestly think I grew some what depressed in a way. I was so worried for the health of my child that I even grew restless. At this point, I just didn't what to do with myself anymore. I put on a smile for everyone around me, but behind that smile was a world of hurt. I was hurting more then anyone ever realized. Outside, I appeared to be strong. Because I had to be, but on the inside I was weak and no where ready for any of this. I thought it couldn't get any worse. My morning sickness was horrible, my emotions were getting the best of me, I ended up developing torturous hemorrhoids. I'm sure some of you ladies can sympathize. Could it get any worse? Think again. 

The following week passed, and my family begged me to come back with them to Tennessee. I figured it was for the best, with the conditions with my pregnancy, my strained relationships, the heartbreak Michael caused me on a daily basis, my lack of hours at my Job. I knew that this was the right decision, but it was also the hardest. Leaving behind my friends, my sisters and nephews was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I was some what relieved, I was leaving behind all the negativity, the bullies, and Michael. That was the greatest joy of all. Texas held a lot of good and bad memories. My friends were there, my nephews were born there, my sisters lived there. But also my my enemies were there, and then there was Michael. The one whom I tried to avoid at all costs when entering Flower Mound. Because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it. This pregnancy had cost me the majority of my friends and my relationship. But I was more grateful then ever. It showed whom my true friends are. And it also showed me that God has the right man out there for me. God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. So why did he make my pregnancy so tough? That is an answer only God can answer.

At 27 weeks pregnant, I went into preterm labor. I had cervical shortening and was dilated 1 cm. It was a scary thought to think that my baby could possibly be born so early. I was immediately admitted to the hospital's maternity ward and put on magnesium sulfate almost immediately. I was put on hospital bed rest for maybe eleven days, but then afterwards I was put on strict bed rest all the way up until 35 weeks pregnant.

When I was 34 weeks pregnant, I went to the doctors office to get Brooklynn's cyst checked. The good news is that the cyst was gone! But then there was bad news. The cyst was gone but now a gap in between her skull and her brain had developed. The doctor said she could have a possibility of having autism and would have to be monitored until the ages 2-3 years old to see if they could make any sort of diagnosis or not. I was devastated. As soon as things get good my world just comes crumbling down. But I had a feeling that god would make everything okay in the end. I had to keep my faith in check.

As time went by I ended up being induced on October 30, 2012. I was two weeks away from my due date and one week away from my induction date. I was induced due to preelampsia and my daughter was born on Halloween morning at 8:41 AM. She was 5 lbs 15 oz and 18 3/4 inches long. She was beautiful, the most beautiful baby I had ever laid eyes on. She was perfect in every single way and she was all mine. I was blessed. I had to have an emergency c-section after 12 plus hours of laboring. My blood pressure was sky rocketing and the doctor on call didn't feel it was safe for me to continue with labor due to possibility of a stroke or worse. The c-section was the worst experience I ever had. I plan for a VBAC with my next child.

Michael isn't involved nor has he ever met our daughter. To this day I still have a blood pressure problem and am on medication for it. I wish I would of waited to have my baby but she is the best decision I have ever made. I love her with all my heart.

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