She's my rock. She keeps me grounded and happy. I just don't know what I would do without her right now. My life is a constant roller coaster and I can't seem to find that balance just yet but when she looks at me and smiles...all my issues disappear. Everything I do is for her. All the constant struggle? For her. The staying up 3-4 hours in the middle of the night just to put her back to sleep? For her.
I feel like I don't even know who I was before Adylee came along. I can't remember what it was like to be a young adult going out constantly. I feel weird even doing it now that I'm a mom. One of my co-workers just turned 21 and she's asked me go out to the bars with her a few times and I've always said no. I would just rather be home snuggling up to my daughter than going out and getting hit on by random drunks. I've been there. I've done that. I don't feel 22.
I know that God has a plan for us but sometimes through all the constant struggle and issues with Bill...it's hard to see what that is. But I trust in Him. I just hope and pray that soon everything will get better. It's been a hard year but it's been worth it.
She's what makes it all worth it.
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